Likely the last thread ill ever make on TF, or on any sort of forum for awhile
i only got this window to make my final message to the TF community, or what remains of it as a whole. i think i better make it count while i still got somewhat of a platform here. gonna be jumbled to fuck
when i returned for the first time in around may 2020 and gained notoriety in the community, my first thought is i'd slip up at some point in the future and drop a slur and heaven forbid you all never fail to make me remember that i was an inch away from that actually happening. my background isn't the best sort of background to come from when it comes to online. i come from areas that are known for fighting entire wars over personal information, doxing and mass harassment prevalent and every major figure in said community had some paedophile scandal. was quite anarchic, sort of like some lord of the flies type shit.
while i was an inch away from that happening, i think the actual turnout was more surprising. for the first time in my life i was actually somewhat meaningful, even if i was a glorified punching bag in some aspects i'd like to think i was a lot more then that. i've met a fuck ton of people on this server, people that i will continue to directly speak to going forward and a fuck ton of memories especially early on in 2020-2021 that i wont ever really forget while i still have a functioning brain and a pulse. i know im not unique in that regard, you reading this likely also have fond memories of this place and maybe its even your only social outlet.
i wont jump the gun and go into whats going on, if you've been around for a bit you can probably put two and two together. this isn't a "you should have all done better" type post so i wont elaborate. this is just a bit of retrospective and where im going to go from here but i kid you not this was a long time coming since last year, that camel had a lot on its back and a few extra straws snapped it in half so, its very likely the end of the line. shit happens ig
for starters, it sucks that i never got to be the forum manager for long, i've been still learning the ropes and its sort of upsetting myself and my team wont ever get to see ourselves flourish into something special. i reckon eventually things would run like clockwork, more similar in line with how luke ran the discord. sucks even more my new mods didn't get their fair shake but i gotta say props to Deauthorized for his forum knowledge, thats about it.
truth be told, i honestly don't know where im going to go from here. call me a narc but i have a feeling a few people will likely have an interest in my next chapter and honestly, your best shot is either my twitter or youtube. ill link them here because if i or my group (G5) ever starts something public, high odds are you're gonna be catching it there first. i've been big on trying to rebuild a discord community or even an entire minecraft server alongside it for sometime but haven't had ample reason to until probably now given i dont really got much of a place to go outside of a collection of private groups. and finding a place where im not a background character is rare, for me atleast.
with that, i dont really know what much more to say. i feel more, jilted then im probably ever willing to let on about this. i mean it was going to happen at some point, nature of life. entropy or some shit, everything goes in time and it seems like times come for this show's fuckin curtain call. im not gonna write an essay on each notable individual to me but ill give a good few mentions to people that spring to mind
Shyrix - we had a rocky past year, i've already spoke to you but im glad we've made things right. just never mentioned to you directly how much it means to me at this nutty point in my life where i fucking feel like im running out of people i can truly trust (i can elaborate more in dms)
videogamesm12 - dont use this to prompt your advances you dirty wearing fedora fuck.
Rex - starting to come through a lot more recently, i want people to recognise the fact you brought me back to this place. + G5
TylerTT - you are digging this news, almost makes me want to have another "amethyst" mental breakdown + G5
CammoSz - also not strictly into TF but irl mate, bailed me out of a shitty situation for 20 quid + G5
JagWire - LNER guy, oh fuck i gotta do streaks. 900+ strong lmao + OG5
wild1145 - You did what you could man, never a wise business decision to sink money into shit that you dont net gain from, especially if its not being repaid in basic respect.
Luke - you're gonna have to call this proposed civil war a tie, we're both gonna lose our platforms. gg
erin - line of duty and just cause girl, dude we really need to talk more at somepoint because you're acct sound
bowie - the first of many many people i've met on my redebuit in 2020, we've been through thick and thin from creepy ban evading stalkers to awesome funny square minecraft moments and other things i actually cannot say
Feueristic - ZnVjayB5b3UsIGhhdmUgcmFuZG9taXplZCBiYXNlNjQgeW91IGxpdHRsZSBjdW50LCBpbSBnb25uYSBtaXNzIHlvdXIgc3BvbmdlIHRlbXBsZXM=
and renzothehottie. she'll never see this, ill put my balls on the line. i didn't need to feature her and probably better if i didn't. but whether i like it or not she's a reason why im even here right now and i gotta thank her for that.
if you weren't included, i do apologise. these are just the individuals that stick out to me in my mind as of writing. if we never cross paths again then i wish you well on the rest of your lives. despite the barrage of punching, y'all were good to me. i felt like i actually fucking mattered for once which wasn't something i'd ever thought i'd achieve.
farewell :wave:
also i wish i actually got to know rail boy Alco_Rs11 more
