Posts by bowie

  • How's your day going?

    my day is going okay
    i cried in school cos i guess i just got really overwhelmed by someone
    they wanted to talk to me after school and i was so nervous all day
    a teacher noticed and then i just broke down, its hard to hold stuff in when someone asks you if ur okay
    but other than that its so swag


    how is your day zarcana

  • it's been wild

    this was so nice to read, lyicx is probably my oldest friend from totalfreedom and im happy to see how far he has come, we have had our ups and downs but i am so glad i am friends with lyicxablechan
    thank you for everything you have done for me and this server lyicx you are amazing

  • swag

    ↩  lyicx
    completely forgot about bluesnow, only ogs remember bluesnow
    even tho at times it was really difficult to deal with i had really amazing people and it has made me a stronger person

  • swag

    I have thought about writing something like this for a while now and I've decided to just do it. I would like to talk about my experiences with harassment.
    As most of you know I was being bothered by Nathaniel, but I also want to talk about some of the other people that have affected me.
    If any of you dont know who Nathaniel is, he is honestly the biggest weirdo ive ever come across in my whole life. He obsessed over me for over a year, he would watch my every move, even back when I was an irrelevant OP I would always catch him following me ingame. This was way back in March 2020, when I had about two friends on totalfreedom. Nathan used the excuse of me being 'popular' as why he was harassing me but I never understood that because even when I had no friends, he was obsessing over me, calling me cute etc. At first I honestly thought he was just trying to be friendly, but it just went on and on. It got worse as most of you know. It did really upset me and it still affects me to this day but I am so thankful for everyones reaction to what he was doing. He was horrible to so many people. I just want this as a way to thank a lot of people, nero, fionn, seth, square, elmon, video, lyicx and ryan, both cactus and owner ryan. I dont know what I would have done without these guys. There is many more people who were so kind so just thank you.
    The other person I wanted to talk about was CurtainPoles. CurtainPoles was a senior admin who was suspended a good few months ago. He would harass me in vc and in our dms on discord, at the time I was only 16 and he was an adult so yeah it just makes the situation worse. So for those of you who are curious to why he was suspended its because of that. I was terrified to talk about it because I felt super guilty, I felt like it was my fault.
    I also just wanna say that if anyone is being sexually harassed or harassed please talk to someone about it, I know it can be scary but no one deserves to live like that. I am proud to say that i am not scared of Nathan or CurtainPoles anymore.
    I dont really know the point of this thread I just wanted to write something about those situations.
    Thank you for reading <3

  • The end of the road

    thank you elmon for everything you have done for this server and for always being a really good friend
    best of luck with uni youll do so epic
    at least the server wont smell bad anymore

  • Resignation

    thank you for being my first ever friend on totalfreedom and for everything you did for the server, best irish admin

  • bowie resignation

    i resign from my admin position.
    i dont feel like i belong in totalfreedom anymore and i dont like where the server is headed
    thank you

  • Master Builder Discussion

    i see master builder as a group of people who are interested in building to benefit the server
    master builders apply knowing that they will help in projects when the ECD requests
    they should have the mbw where they can all build there whether its projects or to showcase their builds
    thats just my view on it

  • Admin Application - riacx/riannex

    im going to go neutral for now
    you are a very active member of the community and you always are willing to help
    but ive noticed that when something doesn't go your way you begin to complain about it a lot and not just accept it
    i just feel from my experience that as an admin you always have to be the bigger person