hi again
im just really letting you all know that i cant do this ECM shit anymore. this is an actual resignation. that includes Hub Mod and Senior admin as i dont really have the urge to go ingame anymore. if its fine with wild1145 and simplynick, i would not mind retaining forum/discord mod as i still check them fairly frequently enough
i feel like after this and the lack of how many people dont fuckin listen and a very vocal minority that expects some sort of result is not faring well with my mental. i put all my cards on the table and i've got barely fuck all to show for it. that and i've become slowly more disconnected from a lot of people and would rather move on. with the way my real life is going i've got other things to be worrying about and i dont want this to be another one of the factors of stress i got to contend with
im sorry its come to this, personally thought it'd be a good thing throughout but well given how this server is like, being an executive is fucking irritating and its not because of the upper management. yes i lost steam around october-november time and has been something i've been contemplating for awhile. then i tried to get back into it and get absolutely spat on. i was going to resign on December 6th aswell but the atmosphere then just kinda made me rethink. i really wish i didn't now. i drafted a full on essay for this shit but thought twice and the shit after christmas till now has not been very good
ill put the draft i made a few months ago in a pastebin or some shit for you all to see since like i dont know how to spoiler it since its a whole ass post long (actual pastebin gets funny about my text so heres a "hastebin") https://hastebin.skyra.pw/raw/efiqabuhul
im really fuckin depressed as shit and i might initially regret this call after a minute but fuck, it might actually be for the best. im not what i was a few years back and i dont fucking think im on the top of anyones high lists anymore so yeah. 👋